These Life Stories pages are very
personal and very important to me. Each one of them is a window to my
soul, and portrays the light and dark side of me. Everyone has these
secret places within themselves, and experiences that have helped them
become who they are. They bring us joy, laughter, pain, deep regret, and
wisdom beyond our years. Like many people, I have unresolved grief and
deep regret in my life. Sometimes we are forced to not talk about it or
dismiss it as not being a part of ourselves. Rather than do this, I think
it is very healthy to tell my story, and listen to others tell theirs. It
is important to realize that our experiences have something to teach us,
and that whatever wrong we have done we can learn from.
It is my
hope that through my openness, I can help others realize that no one is
isolated because of how they feel or how they have treated others. We are
all searching for meaning in our lives, looking for love and nurturance in
a harsh world, and we are looking for our destiny.
DISCLAIMER: Some
of these stories can be difficult to read due to the subject matter. And
some stories would be considered for mature readers (meaning adults)
only.
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"The Lazy Fair"
By Patrick
Kavanagh, my beloved Gatekeeper
Paradise is lost. Go
to the end of the line. Don't you understand the rules? Can't you
read the sign? The sign says "Come to visit the Lazy Fair". I'm
going to the Lazy Fair. I heard about the coma. I'm sorry about your
friend. What seemed to be a great beginning Has obviously come to an
end. You were wrong, you said she wouldn't dare Now she's become a
permanent part of the Lazy Fair. You found a group of friends Who
made you feel like you belonged But one by one they changed their
minds I guess that you were wrong. You're fooling yourself, they
don't really care. Why don't you just go to the Lazy Fair. You tried
to entertain them. You only made them bored. You tried your best to
save them. Your words were all ignored. You're the one we shouldn't
let come up for air You should be going to the Lazy Fair. You
envision the blood of a former companion Trickling down the edge of
your knife While another one hangs in the balance Between the
creation and the destruction of a life All you can do is stand outside
and stare. Caught between the Freak Show and the Lazy Fair.
Come
with me to the Lazy Fair...
Don't look at me Don't talk to
me Don't stand with me Or walk with me Don't smile at me Don't
cook for me Don't hide from me Don't look for me Don't sleep with
me Don't eat with me Play fair with me Or cheat on me Don't
live for me Don't die for me Don't laugh for me Or cry for
me Don't work with me Don't pray for me Run away from me Or
stay with me Don't try to outdo me Don't try to top me I've made
my decision Don't try to stop me...
There's a place beyond
your mind Impossible to see but easy to find. A place that makes you
want to stop and stare...
When you can no longer stand life's
painful sting, And you just don't want to think about things You've got
too many problems and you don't want to care...
I think its time
for you to visit the Lazy Fair I'm going to the Lazy
Fair
Chances are you've been there before Whether or not you
knew the name or what it was for When the tension seems to be more than
you can bear...
Everybody goes sometime, And if you don't,
you lose your mind Sitting in your private electric
chair...
You're better off going to the Lazy Fair. Come with
me to the the Lazy Fair...
